Moving Too Quickly

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Hello Becky. My name is Breanne, I'm 18 years old, a freshman in college, and just lucky to be here right now. When I was 16, and a junior in high school, I met one of the most perfect guys I could have ever asked for. He was caring, sensitive, and always tried to make me happy. One day -- we started dating and things were turning out great. We moved a lot quicker then I thought we did but I didn't care because my friends were already having sex so I figured there would be no difference in me doing it.

Hello Becky.
My name is Breanne, I'm 18 years old, a freshman in college, and just lucky to be here right now.

When I was 16, and a junior in high school, I met one of the most perfect guys I could have ever asked for. He was caring, sensitive, and always tried to make me happy.

One day -- we started dating and things were turning out great. We moved a lot quicker then I thought we did but I didn't care because my friends were already having sex so I figured there would be no difference in me doing it. I thought I was truly in love with my boyfriend that I started having sex with him after only two weeks.

Needless to say we went to Planned Parenthood because I wanted to start birth control so I wouldn't get pregnant. I didn't think that it was a big deal to not use a condom when having sex because I was on the pill.

We continued to have unprotected sex and at the end of April into the beginning of May I began to feel really sick and grew more and more tired. I had missed my period in March and got a little nervous but when I saw that I had it in April I was relieved.

Almost everyday for 2 weeks straight I was "having my period". Every second always having to go to the bathroom and feeling sick to my stomach. But the worst part is yet to come. The "period" that I thought I was having was not the period that we all usually expect. I was internally bleeding because I had gotten pregnant and it was stuck inside my fallopian tube.

I continued to think it was just my period but one day when I came home from school everything changed. I started to not feel good and it felt like I had to throw up almost every second. I knew something wasn't right. My mom came in and asked me if I had sex with my boyfriend -- and I said yes.

She immediately took me to the hospital and I was put into a room where I was hooked up to all the IV's. It took the doctor 4 hours to get to where I lived because I had an ectopic pregnancy. I battled through the whole ordeal with my boyfriend by my side and my parents trying to do what was best.

I was crying and I can only remember myself telling the doctors "please do not let me die tonight."

I woke up from my emergency surgery and the doctor told me that I was lucky to be alive. If I hadn't come into the hospital that afternoon I wouldn't have made it through the night.

The whole experience taught me that having sex early can spin your whole life around whether its for the good or the bad.

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