I Just Wanna Give Up, But...
I love this site. Its nice to see that there are so many girls out
there are so strong and don't just give in to the pressures of
abortion. I have a beautiful baby boy he makes me so happy now and I'm only
17! This whole experience has been a roller coaster ride.
My family, at first, took my pregnancy as a big surprise. It hurt them. You see, I'm the only girl!! and I was Daddy's little girl. I was alone during the pregnancy because the baby's Father didn't want anything to do with me or the baby. After I told him he basically disappeared.
I delayed taking a test until I was about 3 months and by then, of course, I knew it would read positive. Still, I never wanted to admit it to myself. I was living in a surreal world.
My friend, Ricky, told me it would be best if I got an abortion because he knew a lot of girls with babies and it wasn't a good life. So -- I listened, and went to the clinic. There I waited a long time. It was packed.
Sitting there just thinking to myself, alright I'm really going to do this. I walked into the room when I was called and the lady did an ultrasound and told me that I was 18 weeks pregnant. And... it was too late to have an abortion there. She then told me to sit with a counselor and the counselor encouraged me to go to another clinic that preformed abortions after 18 weeks because being 16 and pregnant would be hard.
They also told me that I should tell an adult like my mother but only tell her after I have the procedure done. I remember just sitting there like woah... this lady can't be serious? Right then and there I knew it was time to tell my mom.
I went home and told her. She then told me that she already knew I was pregnant and was waiting for me to tell her. I was so surprised and we both started crying. She told me it would be alright. She then told my dad because I couldn't face him alone. He was so upset and told me how could I be so stupid.
My whole family was depressed for some time but as my belly started getting bigger everyone was anxious to see the baby.
The baby's father hasn't been here at all. At first it made me sad that the baby wouldn't have a father and more at the fact that -- how could somebody not love something so beautiful as this little boy?
I'm still going to school and will be graduating this June as an honor student and class president. It's hard and sometimes I just wanna give up but looking at my baby's face every day brings so much happiness to me and just feels so incredible that it is him, who gives me the drive to wake up every morning....
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family have tried all sorts of presure to abort,even to wanting to send her to a clinic that aborts at 20 weeks ,it really has been a roller coaster for her she is still working in her position in real estate has been busy buying items for the baby as soon she will have to give it up..Iam so proud of her and of all you young mums for fighting for your unborn babies.
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You are a very brave person!
I admire your courage to take on the world with your baby ^^
I hope you do well in life!
written by Erick Lirios , February 19, 2007
Your dad really loves you. When he was upset, he was I think more upset with himself. Psychologists call that projection. A person attributes to someone else his/her own inadequacies. When he asked you how you could be so stupid, I really think he was really thinking about himself.
I said in response to someone else here but I'll repeat it here: you as a parent would take a bullet for your child. So would your parents about you. Since this happened, it was obvious that he failed to take a bullet for you. When parents get angry about their children's failures, we're really more angry that we weren't able to relieve any of the pain and save you from it.
Wow. Honor student and class prez. You're one hell of a girl.
That guy who got you pregnant is really missing something. I hope he comes around (not necessarily to get back with you since you may not want that) but simply because he's missing out on not seeing his son. So many people want children but can't get any and he's turned his back on his son.
Please spread the word about your story. So many people simply think that a pregnancy out of marriage is a total disaser. That friend of yours who told you to get an abortion was well-meaning but ill-informed. God must have been watching over you that day when you decided to tell your parents and held you ground in front of your family.
Again, congratulations!
Erick
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