So much going on in my life, one of my very dear friends sadly commited suicide monday evening. So im utterly devestated! RIP Darren. Also baby daddy drama, Leo's dad honestly needs to grow up! Im fed up of Leo keeping me awake already...and he's not even here yet, and him kiking me whilst im in class...he's such a pain. Ive got so long left, but i just cant wait for this to all be over!

God knows I don't know what to do anymore. As soon as everything starts going right I have to mess it up and set myself back months. I was coping really well and getting past the depression, but I just can't do this anymore. I can't play pretend and go back to living everyday going through the motions. I keep torturing myself, wanting a baby with such ferocity that I want to kill myself

Goodbye my beautiful baby.

I only knew you for a very short time, but already I loved you. Im sorry I was not good enough for you, Im sorry You had to die. Im sorry God took your from me so soon. When I die please forgive me and walk with me in heaven. I am so sorry, my unborn child. I dont know how but I miscarried you. I guess God had other plans for us.


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I was afraid at first,afraid of what pepole would say,family, him.I was alone, so alone i was happy cuz a child is sumthing special.But deep down inside i felt the terrible feeling of empyness.like i couldnt breath, i felt weak i couldnt carry on by myself.After all that i felt the depression came on,i knew i had to stay healthy for myself and for my baby,but the days got longer and my belly