God knows I don't know what to do anymore. As soon as everything starts going right I have to mess it up and set myself back months. I was coping really well and getting past the depression, but I just can't do this anymore. I can't play pretend and go back to living everyday going through the motions. I keep torturing myself, wanting a baby with such ferocity that I want to kill myself

if i could only see your face baby i would rest a while

if i could only see your gummy toothless smile

if i could only hold you while your tears fall

and you wail with a deafening call

if i could only be your mother one more time

if i could only wipe your face when you have face paint made of food

if i could only teach you how to tell the bad from

Wazzup {Standupgirl}

My name is Jerjuana,and I really want to have a baby!I know that,that may sound aso crazii.But sometimes I feel so lonely.Having a baby can change alot that goes on in my world.I will have someone that will love me unconditionally.I know that many girls talk about how getting pregnant is a hugwe mistake.But I also hear alot of them saying how much they love their child