So finding out I was pregnant was scary enough but the thought of sharing the news with family... Now that had me shaking in my boots! I decided the first thing to do was tell my mum seeing how I'm covered under her work insurance... But I was scared... I didn't know how to tell her, neither did my boyfriend... So I mustered up a the courage I could and txt her seeing how she works nights I thought she would be at work.. So I just said for her to call me when she got the chance that gave me time to think of what to say... But less then a minute later my mum was calling! Well that gave me no time at all to think of what to say so all I said was "uhh I think I'm pregnant..." expecting her to freak out and totally shut me down... To my surprise she was excited! She asked me if I was going to keep it and from the very moment I found out I decided to keep it so I told her Ofcorse I was keeping it. Then she went on to talk about how excited she is and how spoiled my baby will be and she has already started planning trips to grandmas house when the baby arrives! Now she is going with my boyfriend and I to the first appointment! I am soo blessed to have such a wonderful man by my side and my mothers support during this chapter of my life! Now I just have to find a way to tell everyone else! I hope it goes just as well!

I've just realized that I've been on this site for quite some time now, since November 2010. So I thought that it was finally time for me to do some explaining about why I joined the site that year.
So hello lovely people! Girls, guys, aliens and everything and anyone in between. I'm Kendel and I'm seventeen, almost eighteen. I'm literally counting down the weeks and when the time gets closer, days, until it's finally my birthday! It's just a little less than ten weeks away now :')

I joined this site back in 2010 because I had a hunch that I was pregnant and I was freaking out. I was only sixteen and I was very, very new to the whole world of sex and 'grown up' stuff like that. I had lost my virginity to a friend and a week later I had found myself in a different guy's bed. I was in the typical 'screw-the-world' phase that everyone goes through. I was partying hard, drinking a lot and smoking anything that I was offered. I was going off the rails. Add a possible baby on top of that and I was losing my mind.

For a girl who has always had irregular periods being a few days late here or there was never really an issue. But after being over a week late I began to wonder.. So I sent my boyfriend to the store to get a test. Although I sent him I had already got that oh no not me mentality... So after taking the first test I didn't believe it and sent him to the store to get more. He came back with 3... I took another, waited.... It was positive.. Still not believing it I took the last 2... Both came up positive. I walked into my room with all 4 positive tests in hand and gave them to my boyfriend, his response "wow... This is cool!" he is extremely happy, me on the other hand I began to cry, have a panic attack and wasn't able to breath. After I calmed down I still didn't believe it. I can't believe I'm pregnant.. What about school? Work? How am I going to do this? Make a future for a baby when I haven't even created one for myself yet... But I've told myself that I can do this, I'm going to do this! Not that it's going to be easy but I'm determined to make this work. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger right??

It has been a year since I had gotten pregnant and I feel as if it is time for me to share my story...

I knew the exact time, spot, and date I had gotten pregnant. I just knew in my soul that something had happened and I got the over whelming feeling of 'Oh Shoot'. My boyfriend at the time was doing well for himself and we were doing wonderfully, At least to my eyes, but to everyone else they saw him control and manipulate me. I loved him so I though that this was something that was normal for a woman in the relationship to do, not wear low cut shirts or skirts, no heavy makeup, no talking to other guys who were not on his 'safe' list. 

I'm done crying for him. I'm done crying period. I'm done with lonly life looking for my true love, because I found the one who will never hate me. I found my baby. Why have a boyfriend who will drop you when the next girl catches his eye? When you have a beautiful life who loves you no matter what! Guys come and go, and I've had to learn that the hard way, but as my baby grows I've learned I have to also. I thought I was mature enough to have sex, I thought he loved me, but boy was I wronge! But without JJ I would have never had her, Arsin my beautiful child, so thank you JJ, thank you for giving me the best presant of my life. Maybe someday you will see her that way too! <3

Why does everyone have a goal to make me cry now? What did I do o diserve this hell? Today was the worst of it, JJ (baby daddy) had to bring up funerels and crap like that. It just broguht back the worst memories of the year. Then he said "what about you, have you lost anyone close to you this year?" Like he didn't already know! Kole (my step son through adoption/cusin) passed away due to a tragic accident, and all week I haven't cried until he had to bring up all that. Everybody was like, 'well at least your talking now' honestly I would rather him ignore me than bring Kole up ever again. I knpw tring to just forget about the whole thing is not the right aproach, but I can't help but to think it was all my fault. How does a tv fall on a two year old? How is a moher step or biological ever supposed live through this when I'm scared to think about my little girl, cause I might lose her too!

Well I'm now 4 months and I just found out im having a girl :D! I chose the name Arsin for her, her daddy doesnt even want to know about her, i  fear he never will. He already has a daughter and sees her all the time, so why should Arsin be any different? I'm so tired of his crap, why cant he just grow up and admitt to his mistake like I did? I hope one day he asks to see her, and you know what im going to let him so he can see what hes missed out on! But one fear I have is that Arsin will make all the same mistakes I did, and I don't want this for her!

Dear General Public.

So, My name is Ashley (as if that wasn't totally obvious...). I'm 16 years old, and currently attending grade 11 in a tiny high school in Canada. (Ay? ;] ) As of today, my monthly "blessing" was supposed to visit me about a week ago. Yesterday, I woke up feeling extremely sick and dizzy. So today, I made the distant drive to Rocky Mountain House, Alberta and bought myself a couple pregnancy tests. Well! As if the obvious wasn't happening, 2 tests, and 4 pink lines later, I was making the phone call to my best friend Jordan in a complete panic. She met me at the hospital (all of the clinics were closed by this time) and we made an appointment to see a doctor! Yay? Two hours, one cup of pee and a nurse stabbing me in the arm to steal my blood later, the doctor knocked on my door. He came in, and immediately handed me a booklet explaining about abortion. He basically explained to Jord and I, that abortion is the answer, and it will solve all of our problems. We live in a tiny town, in southern Alberta. There's seriously like 200 kids in our school. My pregnancy would be the first in like the last... Gazillion years. Being a small school, everyone would know, and everyone would judge me. We all know this too well. I've dreamed of being a teacher since I was like... Little. If I have this baby, it's going to change everything, and make pursuing my dreams a lot more difficult. So of course, abortion is at the top of my list at the moment. My doctor directed me to StandUpGirl to read testimonials from other teenage girls and how they dealt with their abortions. After reading them, I'm finding myself quite scared. I really don't want to go ahead with this if it's going to make me depressed for the rest of my life... But I really have to think about my future, and how it's going to effect me. Right now, 5 weeks in, I'm feeling nauseated all the time, I'm eating a ton and I'm constantly tired. I can imagine in like 6 months, when finals are about to roll around the corner, it'll probably be like 50 times worse. I'm honestly at a loss of what to do. Abortion is seeming like the right decision, but so many people seem so depressed after the initial procedure, and regret it for such a long time. Plus at 5 weeks, I know that my baby is already developing it's eyes, it's ears, and it's respiratory system... I feel like if I go through with this, I'm going to be murdering an innocent human being. 

This is my story how i met and am with the guy im having my baby with. I met him on december 4th hanging with a few of my friends at their house. I barely knew him at the time but we had sex and i lost my virginity. I thought i was never going to hear from him again but a couple days later he texted. I asked him about that night asking if he regreted what we did or anything like that. He said no. He said he didnt regret anything and still wanted to see me so next weekend he did. Everything was great i had a new guy in my life and he is amazing. A few weeks ago he told me he loves me and i love him too. After that i started feeling funny nausea in the morning and night, constantly eating. I was afraid i was pregnant so i had a friend get me a test and guess what? It was positive. I still didnt believe it so i bought another one this weekend. It was still positive. He still doesnt know im pregnant but im going to tell him soon i hope he doesnt freak out. Hes alot older than me and im not ready to be a mother i think but honestly i dont know. Honestly im kind of excited. All i know is i love my boyfriend and i hope he loves me enough to support me with the baby and we can be a family.

Thomas Douglas DiBenedetti III was born January 11, 2012 at 1:28 a.m weighing 7 lbs 7oz and measuring 19 3/4 inches long.

Wooooo yeah! :D He's out and I'm happy! Heres how labor started/went.