One thing that I know you didn't have to do was have an abortion.
I'm sorry that that's what society seems to make everyone think...I can't imagine the pain you feel.
I look at my daughter every day and I cry thinking about how there are so many women who abort their chiildren. They don't get the chance to feel this love. I can tell you now that I've never felt anything like this. She is the most beautiful girl I've ever seen in my entire life. She gives me strength to do things that before I couldn't do. She really is my life.
I was going to college when I found out that I was pregnant with her. It was in August that I found out, and I was planning on going back. Luckily, because of how I was raised, abortion wasn't an option. I had to quit school. I moved back home and I now have a beautiful 17 day old baby girl, and I don't regret it. I am going back to college, but this time it's not for me. It's for her.
Anyway, I am sure that you will be able to have more children. My fiancee's mom has had two abortions, and she has three kids. She had one before my fiancee and his older sister. Then she had one before she had her youngest son. I don't know how she could have done it twice, but... It's sad to even be saying what happened, but I hope that it helps you feel better about having children.
I wish you could take what you ended up doing back...
Abortion hurts everyone. My fiancee still can't stop thinking about the siblings he lost when he found out his mom had abortions. It hurts him more than words can describe, and when I told him that I was pregnant, although he knew how I feel about abortion, he was still afraid that I might have one without telling him.
I wish you luck with having a child, and I hope that everything works out with you boyfriend. Even if it doesn't work out with him, it will always work out with your baby. No matter what, remember that no man is more important than you're child. No one is as important as your child, and school can wait. I know someone who got pregnant in college and kept going while she was pregnant, she had her baby, and came back to school two days later. She ended up graduating with a child. If she can do it, so can you.
Good luck with having a baby. They truly are blessing.