Im 16 and my boyfriend 22. I had an abortion not over a week ago. That was the biggest regret of my life. I had my heart set on keeping my baby. Just to hold my baby and play with my baby and most important, to love my baby. Thats all i had asked for. When i found out i was pregnant, it was a shock to me. But i knew what i wanted to do - keep it. My boyfriend didnt agree with this, he wanted to keep it but he said it wernt {readmore}the best choice to make. it would ruin our lives, and we couldnt be together cause no one would let us. It was a choice of my baby or my boyfriend. I love both of them. I regret having an abortion. When i was little i would always dream of having my own baby. Someone that would look at me and say "thats my mummy" someone i could love. I didnt know it would affect me this much. I absolutely hate what i did. I was 8 weeks pregnant when i had an abortion. I know the due date of my baby aswell. I dont know how im gonna get through this. Its like nobody understands. They say they do, but if they havent been through an abortion then they wouldnt. I get bad dreams when i go sleep, even looking at my teddies hurt me. My boyfriend bought me a teddy on the day of the abortion, on the teddys paws it says "baby girl" looking at the teddy reminds me of my abortion and my baby. I wish i could turn back time. I shouldnt have listened to anybody because now im suffering for what others wanted me to do. I want my baby back. Id do anything to have him/her back in my tummy where they belong. I just want to hold my baby. I dont know what to do. I want my baby back

hey
when i read your story... all i thought was, ou goossshh, how good i understand you..
i had my abortion 1 year,9months and 28 days back... i know you are not askin why the hell i know that so exactly, cause you know it too...it's not so long since <yours...but you know it.
you will have to live with it...
for some it is easy..for some (me to) it is so hard..
i would like to say to you, that someday you'll wake up, and there won't be any anger,sadnes..and all that goes to it. but sorry, i cant..
biu i can say that.. you know that you made the wrong thing, and that's also a step, you have to love y<our baby, try to think that someday you will see him again, hug him, and show him all the love he deservs..
i'm not so really religious, but i belive in that. and it helped me, nopt much but a little, and it's good.
hope my words will help you a little, and please know, if you ever need someone to talk to, i'm there for you!!
**love**