I've seriously been considering not having children. I almost think it's not fair to have to abort my 1st one, and then later on in life, just decide again. I really can see myself not having kids at all, or maybe adoption one or 2. Like i've seen alot of girls on this site say, there's just a huge hole in my chest that feels like it's never going to be filled. I don't know if I could live like that.

I tried talking to my mom about it (NOTE- I also told her it was my \"friend\". mom and dad don't know anything...and it needs to stay that way) and she said it's a perfectly acceptable way to feel after you do something like that. But she told me to remember that they are just that - Feelings. They come and go, and you may feel like this for the rest of your life, or you might have 4 kids and forget it, or you might never forget it. It's all about the way you handle your situation. Or more or less, the way it handles you.
I don't know, maybe I'm crazy. Maybe she's crazy. She did give birth to me. It's early, and I'm probably not making sense.

Did anyone else feel like this?

I have three children that I had at a very young age. I had my youngest at 19,my oldest at 15 and one in the middle at 17. I never had an abortion ,but that is a personal choice and I am not pointing fingers. I just wanted to tell you that one choice does not mean you are not worthy of another child. Everyone is intitled to mess up now and then. My husband had a vasectomy 6 years ago and it was a mistake, now I would do anything for another child. You may change your mind in a few years and I hope you do. Children are a wonderfull blessing if you are ready for them. Don't give up on a child of your own because of guilt. They are wonderful.