Hun, I know what it is like to want a baby so bad it hurts. I've been there. First child I got pregnant with I lost when I was a little over two months pregnant. I was fifteen at the time, wasn't planned or anything. It's horrible. Then I got pregnant at the end of my tenth grade year and found out that summer. I made the choice to keep my baby and later decided that if I was going to be a mother, I needed to marry the love of my life. I started eleventh grade, and soon realized that pregnancy was harder then I ever thought. I was sick all the time, my teachers, and classmates was so mean to me. I was called all kinds of names and even threatened. At one point someone elbowed me in the stomach, when I said something to the teachers they told me it was my fault. I quit school after that. I use to get emails and comments telling me they was going to push me down the stairs and save my child's life. I was even told to abort my child when I was six months pregnant because if I didn't my child would just kill itself because of ho horrible of a mother I will be. Today my son is six months old, and he is the love of my life. I would go through everything all over again for him. But it is one of the hardest things you have to do in life. Being a mother at seventeen is very rough. I don't get to just go hang out with a friend if I want to, I don't get to go to the movies whenever I please. I've yet to finish school because I feel if I do I will be a bad mother. I breastfeed my son so I can't work. My husband supports us on a part time job. Sometimes we even struggle for money. It breaks my heart to know that Braxton can't have everything he wants whenever he wants it. My advice to you is to wait, your only fifteen. You have your entire life to have as many kids as you want. Right now you probably don't work, you still need to graduate, and move out on your own. No one can really tell you what to do, but I promise you if you wait it will be much better on your child, you, and your boyfriend. You may not think this but, what if one day your boyfriend say's "I can't do this anymore, it's too much" then your left on your own to raise your child without his help. I'm not trying to scare you, but having a child isn't just smiles and look at me I'm a mommy. It's so much more then that.
