I had an abortion in April and it was most traumatic thing I've ever been through, mentally and physically. My boyfriend of almost two years, happened to be living with his dad in California temporarily when I found out we were pregnant. His family was very accept and supportive. However, my family (mainly my father) wasn't. I was told that I needed to get out of his (my father's) house if I planned to keep my baby. So I started to pack my things not really sure what would happen seeing as I was months shy of my high school graduation. My mom came into my mom and tried to stop me, telling me that she loved me and that everything would be okay. I called my boyfriend to pick me up. I guess father thought that I wouldn't actually leave and seeing my boyfriend pissed him off. He ended up shoving my boyfriend down the stairs and beating him up. I wasn't allowed to talk to my boyfriend until I left for college. And even now, it's very secretive. The next morning my mom drove me a clinic where my 7 week 3 day old child's life was terminated. I have never been able to talk to my parents about it. This whole ordeal has torn my boyfriend and me apart mentally. I can't talk to him because we both just cry and I can't talk to my friends because they don't know. I'm just so lost. I don't know if I can ever get over the guilt and forgive myself and my parents. Please help

Hey there sweetie, I am sorry that you are in the situation you are in...our parents are supposed to be the ones who help us, support us and teach us how to make responsible decisions and it seems as though your parents have let you down in so many ways...it is important to love them and respect them regardless but I am so sorry that they were the ones to bring this upon you....here is a number you can call 1-800-395-HELP, they can give you the number and location to the closest Pregnancy Resource Center to you where you can get FREE and CONFIDENTIAL post abortive counseling ...obviously it will not make your baby come back to you and it will not solve all of your problems but it will be something that can help you heal and forgive yourself and your parents...it will be a safe place for you to let your guard down with someone who has been equipped with the knowledge of grief and emotions involved who can then help you find the best way to begin your healing journey....we are all here on Standupgirl to support you as well, you have a lot of ears here to listen and many mouths to offer helpful advice...I hope that you will stick around and let us love on you and Stand by your side as you find the strength to heal and move on....much love and many prayers....Meg