Hi.
I know that you said that people who think you should keep the baby shouldn't reply but hear me out.
Yes, I do want you to keep the baby and here's why: There have been people who have had less to give their baby, nothing else but their grit and determination that they will do their darnest best to give their babies the best life they themselves can give.
You seem to have a deep faith and with regard to that, once in a while, I'm not saying you did this, we do tend to put words in God's mouth and He, being the good Father that He is, allows us this and supports us regardless.
But your tears tell me something else. I have learned and was taught in college theology classes that God does speak to us also by means of our emotions. Thus, the pain and tears you may be going through now may very well be God's way of telling you what you should do. Good decisions are normally made with a lightness of heart. Though difficult, the peace is there.
You said you eventually felt a connection to your child. That didn't happen by chance. God put it there and He did so with a real reason.
I asked you to hear me out and here's why: Be not afraid. Come to Christ and, regardless of the difficulty, He will stay with you and carry you and your baby.
God promises to take care of us more than we ourselves realize that we need to be helped. He knows how to help us and He will. I'm older than you are and a good part of that age has allowed me to see how God does take His children in His arms to take control and take of them regardless of their fear.
Please, do not be afraid.
God bless you.
Erick
