Dane is my boyfriend of almost two years now. He's the father of my baby (due in five days) and seems really in love with me and excited about being a father.

...but I read his diary the other day, and now I don't know what to believe.

In it he said he's in love with my fifteen year old sister (he's twenty-one, making that CREEPY! i don't care what you say) but can't be with her because he's with me. He also had a list of girls he wants to \"F&*^ with no strings attached\" and my sister and another fifteen year old are on it, as well as pretty much every girl we know.

Oh, and he \"kinda\" hopes the baby and I die during childbirth so that he can be \"free\".

I approached him with the intentions of breaking up with him, but it didn't happen. Not only didn't I leave him, he tried to turn it around on me and get mad at me for \"invading [his] privacy\". UGH! WTF?

I don't know how I'm supposed to feel since he seems genuinely happy with me and with the baby. How is it that he loves us, yet kinda wants us to die? Everyone has doubts, but that is just too much for me to handle.

Hey there, sorry about your boyfriend, it is hard to find out that the one you love and want a family with is an untrustworthy \"creep\", I found my daughters dad looking at porn one time, I was on the computer after he was asleep and I went to click on a browser to search for something and it showed all the last sites visited and he was looking up stuff like \"cute young girls with nice a**'s\" and some other really disturbing things....I lost all trust for him....that was kind of my final straw, he was acting really strange leading up to all that....as hard as it may be, you really should leave him, your sister is 15 and so is this other girl you mentioned in his diary....I don't know if you are having a girl or a boy but I wouldn't want a guy who wants to have sex with a little girl in my house with my child, did he have his diary in a very hidden place or was it in a spot that could easily be stumbled upon??? He secretly hopes that you and baby die in child birth??? Do you want to give him the chance to move beyond secretly hoping when the baby is screaming all night??? Run from this guy...I wouldn't trust him, my ex did the same thing...he would always turn it around on me, I found out after we were split up that he told his friend that he couldn't wait till Pennie was 18 so he would be done with us....yet when I left him he guilt tripped me and pulled the whole, \"I am going to kill myself\"...if he doesn't want to be with you give him his way but don't allow the guilt trip...he is the one who will be missing out, don't let him play head games or get all controlling...it is just not worth it and it is unhealthy for you and baby...Love Meg

Hey there, sorry about your boyfriend, it is hard to find out that the one you love and want a family with is an untrustworthy \"creep\", I found my daughters dad looking at porn one time, I was on the computer after he was asleep and I went to click on a browser to search for something and it showed all the last sites visited and he was looking up stuff like \"cute young girls with nice a**'s\" and some other really disturbing things....I lost all trust for him....that was kind of my final straw, he was acting really strange leading up to all that....as hard as it may be, you really should leave him, your sister is 15 and so is this other girl you mentioned in his diary....I don't know if you are having a girl or a boy but I wouldn't want a guy who wants to have sex with a little girl in my house with my child, did he have his diary in a very hidden place or was it in a spot that could easily be stumbled upon??? He secretly hopes that you and baby die in child birth??? Do you want to give him the chance to move beyond secretly hoping when the baby is screaming all night??? Run from this guy...I wouldn't trust him, my ex did the same thing...he would always turn it around on me, I found out after we were split up that he told his friend that he couldn't wait till Pennie was 18 so he would be done with us....yet when I left him he guilt tripped me and pulled the whole, \"I am going to kill myself\"...if he doesn't want to be with you give him his way but don't allow the guilt trip...he is the one who will be missing out, don't let him play head games or get all controlling...it is just not worth it and it is unhealthy for you and baby...Love Meg

Hey there, sorry about your boyfriend, it is hard to find out that the one you love and want a family with is an untrustworthy \"creep\", I found my daughters dad looking at porn one time, I was on the computer after he was asleep and I went to click on a browser to search for something and it showed all the last sites visited and he was looking up stuff like \"cute young girls with nice a**'s\" and some other really disturbing things....I lost all trust for him....that was kind of my final straw, he was acting really strange leading up to all that....as hard as it may be, you really should leave him, your sister is 15 and so is this other girl you mentioned in his diary....I don't know if you are having a girl or a boy but I wouldn't want a guy who wants to have sex with a little girl in my house with my child, did he have his diary in a very hidden place or was it in a spot that could easily be stumbled upon??? He secretly hopes that you and baby die in child birth??? Do you want to give him the chance to move beyond secretly hoping when the baby is screaming all night??? Run from this guy...I wouldn't trust him, my ex did the same thing...he would always turn it around on me, I found out after we were split up that he told his friend that he couldn't wait till Pennie was 18 so he would be done with us....yet when I left him he guilt tripped me and pulled the whole, \"I am going to kill myself\"...if he doesn't want to be with you give him his way but don't allow the guilt trip...he is the one who will be missing out, don't let him play head games or get all controlling...it is just not worth it and it is unhealthy for you and baby...Love Meg

My goodness girl.
Its like having 2 different lives. I believe that what i write in my diary is what i'am feeling/thinking and thats why you write it down in a diary coz you dont want to say it out loud. So maybe this is the way he feels which IS creepy and he shouldnt be leading you on if he feels this way.
I hope you can find a way to sort this out.

HONESTLY, THAT IS KINDA SCARY. IT GAVE ME THE CHILLS. IT IS DEPRESSING THAT HE WANTS YOUA ND YOUR BABY TO DIE AND THE FACT THAT HE LOVES YOUR SIS AND MANY OTHER YOUNG GIRLS HE DOSEN'T SEEM AS THOUGH HE IS WORTH KEEPING. IT SEEMS AS THOUGH HE WANTS TO BE FREE AND I WOULD GIVE HIM THAT FREEDOM. PLEASE DON'T GET ME WONG I AM NOT TRYING TO JUDGE HIM OR YOU BECAUSE YOU KNOW HIM AND NOT ME. I AM SIMPLY SHARING MY OPINION.