I was 18 and I'd just started going out with my boyfriend (who is now my fiancee!) when I got pregnant. We'd had sex straight away in our relationship and my parents hadn't even met the guy yet.
I felt like I had no other choice than to have an abortion and so that's what I did.
I always loved that baby, I just didn't think I could handle being a parent at such a young age....I didn't tell my boyfriend.
A year later my boyfriend's mum came close to death in a car accident, it made us think about how precious life is & I suddenly saw my abortion in a way that I never had before.
It was wrong.
It was a life.
I told my boyfriend, as well as his parents and they were so forgiving of me, I also begged for God's forgiveness & to know our baby was in heaven. I now know that my baby is in a beautiful with God
A year after my secret coming out, we decided to try to have another baby & have been blessed with a beautiful little girl called Isabelle.
I realise that having an abortion does not stop you from being a mother, but it makes you a mother to a dead baby.
I'm praying that God will forgive me and my baby can forgive me so that we can meet again, I thank God for my 2 children, one in heaven and one on earth.
I just felt like I should share my story as I've been on both sides of this difficult decision after a crisis pregnancy and I would love to talk with some of you.
Love Sinéad x