I had just got a suction abortion on Monday,September 4th, 2010, and I feel like I have done the worst thing in the world. but I still feel wrong about it. I dont have family I can talk to about it and my friends wont talk to me because I actually got it done at 16 weeks and 2 days. I'm into my second day of recovering and I have not left my bed, I'm afraid to leave my house. I'm afarid people will know what I had just done a couple days ago. The worst of it all is the pictures I saw after it had already happened, walking out of the womans clinic to a elderly woman handing me picture of what really happened to my unborn child. I cant close my eyes because every time I do I see those horrible pictures and then I wined up crying myself to sleep once again. I dont know what to about any of it, I just want to feel better.

hello honey!

i am so sorry you feel this way, i wish i could help you someway...maybe with being here for you? you can pm and we will talk, im a good listener!

well i hope its not too much to ask...but why have you waited that long to get the abortion? im not judging, just want to understand...

i have had an abortion too. and i needed lots...lots of time to somehow accept it. it will be 4 years this year, yet there are days when i think about the baby i aborted and feel bad..

love,

Monika

you can talk to me if u wanna i had my abortion the same day as you

i just wanna say everyday gets easier i assure you that, i had my abortion January 28th 2010. it was really hard at the start and i cried all the time about it and sometimes when i see a pregnacy show or a new born baby it upsets my but no that everyday it gets easier i promise

i dont think its ever going to get easier.... its been about 3 months and i still can't get over it... i don't even see my daughter any more... i don't feel comfortable with her... knowing what i did i can't stand being around her and I'm sure by now she doesn't even know I'm her mom.... but what ever her life is better without me there... she wont ever have to worry if she was a mistake or if she was suppose to be in the same place as the other baby and now she'll never know what her dad did to me... she'll always grow up think of her daddy as the number one man in the world

Hi there hun... it does get better after a while. I had my abortion a little more than three years ago and there are times where I don't think about it every second of every day... and then there are weekends (like the one that's just passed) that it's all that I think about.
No one is going to look at you and know... and no one has the right to judge you... every single one of us has done something that we regret, that we wish we could undo, rewind and start over. It might never go away... but you will learn to cope with it and when things get bad, come online and blog (it always makes me feel better).

I really hope that you start feeling better soon and if you ever need to chat or rant and rave, you're more than welcome to pm me.

Love Eva