Hello!
My heart goes out to you for I have walked in your shoes. I went thru with an abortion and regretted it for many years after. I suffered emotionally, physically, mentally and most of all spiritually. Aborting my child is something you never get over, it left me feeling empty and depressed for many years. I met a women where I worked who shared in my experience and we both decided to go for healing at a place called Rachel's Vineyard. We attended a weekend retreat and shared our experience with other girl's and women. I should have attended this retreat many years soon, but was not ready to face what I did. Attending Rachel's Vineyard was the best experience I could have done in helping myself heal the guilt, anger and emptiness that I carried around for years. I strongly suggest that you google Rachel's Vineyard and find out when and where there next retreat will take place. You will not regret going. I wish you all of Gods blessings, Healed.