One of the worst things I could have ever done. I was 16 and 9 weeks along. First off I was in the docters office cuz I was throwing up. Secretly I knew I was pregnant but I went cuz my dad insisted that I go. So when the doctor came in and said I was pregnant with my dad sitting there was only the first big blow. Then it went down hill from there. He was soooooooooooo pissed at me. And insisted that abortion was the only option for me. My mom left it up to me..and my boyfriend of almost 2 years wanted me to keep it. I had no clue what to do. So I convienced myself that it was the best choice. I guess it all happened so fast I never really thought about it. And almost 3 years later I still cant get past what happened to me. Everyday I regret what I did..and would give anything just to be able to have the child with me now. Im so torn up and lost.

My boyfriend of 1 year told me he loved me. I believed him. We had sex. I got pregnant. I was waiting in my house to tell him when i hear the doorbell ring. So in my haste to get to the door I fall down the stairs. My father found me with blood all around my lower area. At the hospital they told me I was 4 weeks pregnant and I had miscarried. IN FRONT OF MY DAD. To say he was mad is an understatement{readmore}.

He was so disappointed in me. I never even got the chance to tell Leighton. Never got the chance to cry over the baby I lost.

When I finally got the chance to tell Leighton "I was pregnant, but hes not there anymore." He was furious thinking I had an abortion! No Way! I didnt even get the chance to explain.

I got an infection 2 weeks later. Long story short. I CANT EVER HAVE KIDS.

Be thankful for what you have.

I did it too, and the minute I took that first pill I wanted to turn back the clock and do undo the damage that I'd done. To say that my boyfriend pushed me into it would be a lie... we both sort of decide and we both sort of didn't decide... there was no real certainty in anything during the "i'm pregnant" conversation... just the certainty that we both freaked out and rushed into something we weren't sure how it would end up affecting us...
We've learned to live with it now, some days, actually most days, are easier than the really bad ones, where something small triggers a memory that sets you and makes you remember.

The truth is that it doesn't get 100% better immedietly and in all honesty, I'm not sure if it ever gets 100% better, I doubt that it will. But I have learned that you can learn to live with it and cope with it. Just take each day as it comes and start trying to forgive yourself.

Wishing you all the best
Evangeline xoxox

it's been a month since i've had my abortion . i still have mixed feelings and it gets harder at nights, don't get me wrong i know i made the right decision but it doesn't make it any easier to deal with. right now a girl that i work with is 6 months pregnant and sometimes it just kills me to see her ...I would be around 3 months. i get sad about it and when i talk to my boyfriend it's like he doesn't understand ...i'm still not ready to be super social and i feel like people kinda look down on me for it. i'm sure my hormones are still out of whack and i know this is something that doesn't just poof and be gone. i will live with my decision for the rest of my life, the what-ifs would probably drive a normal person crazy but they don't bother me too much, just nights mostly . I guess that's the time of day that you truly have by yourself.