Goodbye my beautiful baby. I only knew you for a very short time, but already I loved you. Im sorry i was not good enough for you, Im sorry You had to die. Im sorry God took your from me so soon. When I die please forgive me and walk with me in heaven. I am so sorry, my unborn child. I dont know how but suddenly you were gone from my life. I guess God had other plans for us.

I love you so much, plese forgive me.
your mommy.

Enya.

Hey Enya, lots of hugs coming your hun.I'm really sorry for your loss and I hope that in time you will begin to heal and find inner peace, understanding and forgiveness.
You mustn't blame yourself for what's happened, you have no control over nature and that does not make you a bad or unworthy mother. Please, always remember that.
Prayers and positive thoughts, E xoxo

Thank you Eva, it's just so hard not to blame myself. i feel like maybe if i had done something different this wouldn't of happened. I know that sounds irrational but it's true. I just dont know how to let go and move on. I feel like i dont deserve to be happy and continue on with my life when i know that my little baby will never have one. Im so lost..

-Enya

hi im so sorry for your loss i know what your going thru if u ever want to talk im here for you.
stay strong luv & hugs gabby xxxx

Grief is so complicated and manifests itself in strange ways, please go and see a therapist, I think it'll really help you to learn how to cope with this loss. It's not going to happen over night, but with time you'll learn to remember your baby without feeling all this self hatred and resentment.
You do deserve to be happy and you deserve to live a life filled with love ans success. Don't deny yourself these things because of misplaced guilt, because I'm sure that your baby would not want his/ her mommy living a half life.
Of course you're going to feel lost because nothing is going to replace your little one. Allow yourself to grieve, allow yourself to cry but then give yourself permission to begin healing. You cannot live your life blaming yourself for something you had no control over.
I am always here if you need to talk.
Much love, Evangeline xoxox

Thank you Eva and Gabby for your support, it means alot to me *hugs*