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i wont be able to ever for give myself. 3 years, 4 months ago #22289

Hi iim gabby and i am 16 years old, i had an abortiion when i was 15 years old when i was 6mnths and 3 weeks in and it was the worst day of my life i didt tell my mum or dad until i was 6 mnths & 1 week in, because they could tell something was wrong.and it was so hard to hide it they kept on saying are you sure your well enough to go to school because i kept on feeling really unwell and having mood swings.and i gues they didt think anything like that would of been the problem, its been 5months now since i had the abortion and if i could go back i would i would never of gone and i would have her in my arms now i look at the ultra sound scan of 6mnths a week before the abortion i had a scan and i look at it every day and it macks me cry. but i have a msg to girls who get pg being a teen be strong and do whats right at the time and tell your perants. at the time i couldt of coped with having a daughter but me and my boyfriend did stick to gether and weve been together for 19mnths now so you must not be scard and do whats right by you. thanks gabby xo r.i.p sasha-lou ii miiss you everyday and i love you to bits! you would of made me the proudest person to walk into a room with you in my arms and no1 could ever take you off me, im so sorry for what i did to you and that you never got to live your life. r.i.p 10/4/08-9/9/08 happy birthday 11.1.09 iloveyou princess all my love mummy &+ daddy.

Re:i wont be able to ever for give myself. 3 years, 4 months ago #22322

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Hi Gabby, I'm very sorry for your loss but I think it's great that yr using this experience to try and stop other girls from going down the same road. It takes alot of courage to use your pain to help others because often talking about it is one of the hardest things you can do.
I hope you'll continue posting and sharing your experience.
Hugs, Evangeline.

Re:i wont be able to ever for give myself. 3 years, 4 months ago #22340

I was really touched by what you said. I am also 16. I had an abortion when i was 15weeks and 3days. I have never forgiven myself. I had mine 6 months ago and my baby would of been born on the 20th december 2008. My mum gave me no choice, but now me and my boyfriend are trying for another baby. This time i am giving my mum the choice of supporting me or walking out of my life.
Keep strong sweetie, your not alone.
xxx

Re:i wont be able to ever for give myself. 3 years, 4 months ago #22341

thankyou &+ it is the worst thing anyone could go through. because my dad also said to me if i had my daughter she would have to of been put up for adoption and it was still neither of the things i wanted to do, i wanted to have my little girl but i had no choice.
r.i.p sasha-lou nicole clarke iloveyou & miiss yoou so much the day you died was the worst day of my life and i truley regret what i did to you, and im so sorry love mummy & daddy xxxxx

Re:i wont be able to ever for give myself. 3 years, 4 months ago #22346

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>hugs< parents can be so cruel sometimes! my mom's always said that if I came home pregnant she'd perform the abortion herself- never told her we were expecting.
I don't think your dad really meant that, I'm sure if things had worked out differently he'd be a proud and happy grandpa.

Re:i wont be able to ever for give myself. 3 years, 3 months ago #22442

do you think? my boyfriend said to me last night that he wishes we never choice to have the abortion because he wanted us to have a litle girl together and i really wanted to have her but its too late and my mum said to me on the 11th jan that she wished id never went to the aptmnt luv gabby xx
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