I am 9 weeks pregnant. I am married I have a 10,and 9 month old. My husband does not want any more kids.He says if I have it he will divorce me and pay but not have anything to do with it! I love my husband very much but this isn't the first time he has pressured me in to an abortion. About 41/2 years ago when we were dating for 6 months I had got pregnant and I believed at the time I could not afford to raise another baby. So I had terminated the pregnancy. That was my 2nd one that I had. I do not believe it to be a form of birthcontrol but I sometimes make really bad decisions and accidents happened. I am very confused. I look at my 9 month old and cry because this is my husband who I thought loved me and would be supportive,instead I get that I did this on purpose. I want to finish school and have a life with the children I have now. But mainly I am afraid that I can not do it on my own.My 10 year olds dad comes and goes as he pleases. I have made me an appointment at Choices to talk to a councler. I do not know what to do! Do I lose my husband and have the baby? Or do I go through what might be the my breaking point. I always thought I did not have a conscience but the more I think about this I am not the same person I was when I was so foolish so long ago.

Hey Brooke -- have you seen Crystal's post. She was in a very similar situation...

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I know it must be a hard decision for you but let it be yours. As I alway say people come and go,but you will have to live with yourself forever.

i know that you love your husband very much and that it sucks to have to chosse to of the most important things to you but you have to make the right decision for you. if you get pushed into something you dont want to do then you will regret it even more. dont let anyone push you into something that you dont want to do. i hope all goes well. we all here to suport you

thank you for your reply. That is so true. I know that it will work itself out.

I understand that this has got to be tough but if he wont stand by you and support you with this then how do you know he will with other things? It's not like you're the only one involved in this, you didn't get yourself pregnate, he shouldn't be blamming you. That baby inside of you, that's a life that you created, that's a part of you. In the long run the decision is yours but make sure it's what you really want.