Today I turned away from having an abortion. I was almost there and I turned away. I couldn't do it. My boyfriend was pushing me into it and I knew the whole time it was wrong. He already has a little girl from a previous relationship and it more then ashamed to go through this again. He told me he wanted me to have an abortion bc/ he didn't want to go through it again.
I woke up today aftern another sleepless night and realized that I was making this decision about 90% for him and just 10% for me. I knew at athat point I had to stand up for my baby. I did. For the first time in two years since dating him I feel as if I am actually strong. It's too bad I din't realized that before all this, but at least I made the right choice. Luckily, when I told my parents today they handled it better then I ever thought possible. They are amazing
Now I am dealing with pure hatred from my boyfriend. But, at least I know in my heart that finally I became strong.
Strong but yet ever so weak.