I just want to insert a word of widom for you hon. What your boyfriend does to you is not love. I hope you've had the true love of a parent in your life - or someone - but love ISN'T EVER trying to make your partner, or friend, or whoever feel bad. That is control - and it is VERY different from LOVE. Love is not a struggel, andit is not painful. Is this the man that you want setting an example for your future child? I know it's already too late but please, you can minimize the damage. Either get away from him or consider putting your baby up for adoption. Sewriously - think about the love you will have for this baby and think about the man you are providing for a father and what the conswequences for that will be.
(hugs).'