I THINK I HATE HIM...HE HURT ME SOOO MUCH...OVER AND OVER AGAIN...ITS LIKE THE PAIN JUST WONT GO AWAY!! LOVE HIM SOOO MUCH BUT I HATE HIM SOOO BAD. I DONT WANT TO BE WITH HIM...BUT WHEN I'M NOT IT MAKES ME SOOO SAD. YES WE HAVE HAD GOOD TIMES AND SOME WERE BAD...BUT I JUST DONT KNOW IF I CAN GO ON WITH THE BAD TIMES STILL STUCK IN MY HEAD!!! WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY DO I FEEL SO SAD? WHY DO I SAY I HATE HIM SO MUCH AND THEN AGAIN WHEN HE CALLS ME OR TEXTS ME I GET BUTTERFLIES IN MY TUMMY? WHAT IS THIS FEELING? I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND!!! WHEN I SAY I'M GOING TO LEAVE HIM ALONE I EVENTUALLY GET OVER MYSELF AND JUST KEEP IT GOING FOR ME. MY HEART AND SOUL BURNS FOR THIS GUY. HE SAYS HE WANTS TO MARRY ME AND HAVE KIDS WITH ME. BUT I JUST CANT SEE IT!!! IF HE LOVES ME THEN WHY ARENT WE TOGETHER ANYMORE? WHY DO WE HAVE TO HAVE THIS BREAK BUT YET WE TALK EVERY DAY!! WHY IS IT CALLED A \"BREAK\" IF YOU STILL WANT TO TALK TO ME LIKE WE GO TOGETHER AND SEE ME ALL THE TIME? WHAT IS THIS!? WILL SOMEBODY PLEASE TELL ME? I CRY ALL THE TIME AND DONT KNOW HOW TO CONTROL THIS!!!


TEAR
TEAR

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I know that feeling. Believe me I have been there. I found for me it was that I was used to having him around and him being part of my life and when he wasn't there it was like I was missing an eye. After 6 years and raising my daughter on my own I'm over it. I don't love him but a part of me will always remember him. We spent 2 yrs together and thats a long time, and its a lot to forget. For a long time I hated him and sometimes I still do, but it was that hate that let me get over it after I walked away. You just have to walk away. Guys that go on a break but still want to be with you just want to be there for the fun times not the times that exist within a relationship . Not the responsability and commitment that are involved of actuelly being with you. Your guradian Angel could have the perfect guy standing right in front of you at this very moment. But you will let him pass by if all you can see is this guy your with now.

Don't blind yourself with a Love/Hate relationship. Let your inner beauty radiate. When you find the right person it won't feel like when their gone your missing an eye, it will just feel like when their there you can see more clearly and its actuelly pretty cool having an extra set of eyes. That other person will bring out the best most beautiful you. You are beautiful now, imagine how you will be when it shines through all the more.

Shana;)

I know that feeling. Believe me I have been there. I found for me it was that I was used to having him around and him being part of my life and when he wasn't there it was like I was missing an eye. After 6 years and raising my daughter on my own I'm over it. I don't love him but a part of me will always remember him. We spent 2 yrs together and thats a long time, and its a lot to forget. For a long time I hated him and sometimes I still do, but it was that hate that let me get over it after I walked away. You just have to walk away. Guys that go on a break but still want to be with you just want to be there for the fun times not the times that exist within a relationship . Not the responsability and commitment that are involved of actuelly being with you. Your guradian Angel could have the perfect guy standing right in front of you at this very moment. But you will let him pass by if all you can see is this guy your with now.

Don't blind yourself with a Love/Hate relationship. Let your inner beauty radiate. When you find the right person it won't feel like when their gone your missing an eye, it will just feel like when their there you can see more clearly and its actuelly pretty cool having an extra set of eyes. That other person will bring out the best most beautiful you. You are beautiful now, imagine how you will be when it shines through all the more.

Shana;)

Hey! I am so sorry I wasn't on last night, when you were- so we could talk. I am glad we e-mail, and chat. You seem like a bright lady. Keep smiling, and writing... everything will be ok. I know, as that is something I still live with. I hate my ex, he takes my daughter- and yet, he still writes to me and asks me if I have feelings for him, although he takes my daughter without me and everything... It's terrible... What a bad situation! But, I hope for better for you and all! Smile and keep your chin up!

Nicki

no guy should make you cry and then one that does doesnt deserve your tears. you have to ask yourself do the happy times out way the bad times. love should make you happy and make you smile not all the time but most of it,

wow its sounds exactly like my relationship. he hurts me and lies and i try to break it off, i try to leave him, but then when he calls it seems i forget how much he has hurt me even though i know deep down he will do it again, i just try not to believe it, but it always happens again. but yet he still wants to tell me that he loves me although he has never shown it, this cant be what love is suppose to be...it hurts too much. i think we both need to learn how to stand strong on our own two feet, and mean it when we say goodbye.
but for you it sounds like he just doesnt want to commit, he wants all the benifits of a relationship without the commitment. that's not fair to you.
girl we need to learn not to let anyone treat us like anything worse than the beautiful women we are. good luck to you.

gina lynn