I have a beautiful seven month old girl named Hannah. I am 22 and still scared. I live with my boyfriend who's great with her. My family adores her and she loves them. She's a very happy baby and fairly low maitenance. I've had some post partum depression and sometimes i feel like she ruined my life. This child does not deserve to have a mother who feels like this.I'm terrified by the idea that I'm her mother, that i'm responsible for her, and that I'll have her forever. I know that it gets easier and I'll be Ok but what do I do now? I don't have health insurance and can't afford counseling... What did you do to feel better?

I just turned 19 and had a baby 6 months ago. I know how you feel when you say how unhappy you are that you are her mother. Sometimes I feel the same way. All of our timelines are totally different. You may not know it yet but Hannah is on this earth for a reason. She looks up to you and loves you no matter what you think or how you feel. She can smile at you when you can't smile back. Everyone learns the hard way with a first child. You never know, you may feel the same way with your second. Don't feel bad, when life gives you lemons, make lemonade. Give yourself credit for bringing her into the world and giving her life. Becoming a mother myself, has taught me so much, I wouldn't trade-in my son for anything. He watches my every move and looking into his tiny eyes that I helped create made all my bad emotions go away. Maybe you can look up getting health insurance online. I qualified for it and I know you can too. Good luck. Be happy that your family and boyfriend are being supportive, your very lucky !