Honestly, you'd ba amazed how much maternal instinct you'll have, even before the baby is born. Everything in your body will force you to take care of all of your babies needs, but if you honestly think that you can't do it, be brave, and think of your baby, not yourself, and you will find the courage to do whatever is best for the baby. Adoption can be the hardest decision that you make, but there are open adoptions, where you get to visit your child, and go to birthday parties, and your child knows you, and who you are, while someone else gives them the life that you so desperatly want to give them. I hope that this helps, I know it is a hard decision, but only do what you feel deep in your heart to be right for you and your baby.
Good luck,
Michelle J.