My boyfriend and I have been doing it for sometime without any protection. We both thought that it would still be the same after we did it several times. But then, even before I was positive for being pregnant, I already had a feeling that we're not so lucky this time. I feel so ashamed and afraid for what's happening inside me. I told him this and I said that I had hopes and dreams yet before settling down, now it seems I don't have a chance to reach those. We're both trying our means to remove what's inside before it grows. I've tried roots from horseradish, aspirin with softdrinks but I still feel it inside. What I've noticed is that, everytime I take those, I keep on vomiting them out. I've tried to jump at high places and do strenous activities but to no avail. I have no one else to talk to because my mom had made it clear before that she doesn't like the guy and if ever I had a child with the guy, she will never love her grandchild. I know I sound so selfish but I also know that the child will only suffer. We both don't have work as we gave up our works recently to search for better ones and until now, now that I'm carrying a life inside me, we still both haven't found a job. Sometimes I wish someone would take us both out of the country and offer to take good care of us while waiting for the child. But I know that's just a dream. I'm also afraid to continue my pregnancy as to what will become of my child now that we have done lots of things to eliminate it from my womb. I'm so miserable and depressed. Can someone out there help me?

Wow you seem to be goiing through alot....Please dont keep doing those things.... because you are hurting yourself as well......maybe go talk to someone......I had an abortion as well my story is posted here a few posts above yours as \"regretting abortion\"....it was the worst decision of my life. Whether you lose a child through abortion miscarriage or whatever.....nothing can prepare you for the lifetime of greift and emptiness you will have to face afterwards.....I am telling you this to help you see that killing your child will only make you feel worse....please consider what I have told you.....people are here to help and support you and maybe you should check some resources in your area there is tons of help for young mothers like yourself....peace and god bless

Mariz,
Trying to eliminate your pregnancy will hurt so much more than being pregnant in the first place. There are hundreds of thousands of couples looking to adopt a newborn. You should try finding a local adoption agency. They will match you with a family that will take care of you while your pregnant and then adopt the child when it is born. You could even ask for an open adoption if that is what you want. But don't do anything that could jeopardize your own health as well as the baby's.

PLEASE QUIT WHAT YOU ARE DOING!!!! there are other options out there!!! if you dont want the child....then look into adoption...if you abort the baby, or miscarry it through all the means that you are going through to do it, youll regret it for the rest of your life...i had a natural miscarraige last year (meaning it happened on its own through nothing that i did) and i miss that child everyday...if you want your child to grow up and be loved by its family, then do the next best thing for it if you think that it wont be loved by your family...place it in another family....there are adoption programs out there where you can get updates on the baby for a few years...that is what my sister did...she found a program where shell get updates from the family for up to five years as part of the adoption...maybe longer than that if the parents want to...but atleast that baby will have a fighting chance in this world that we live in...

Have you taken a pregnancy test to find out for sure whether you are pregnant? If not, I would take a test first thing. There are resources out there to help you with the pregnancy. I would contact birthright or your local crisis pregnancy center. You could look at the links under girl help on this site for numbers and links directing to help.

It sounds like you recognize that this is a life and a child inside you. I understand your initial fears and desire to make the situation go away. I know that having this baby would take courage and I won't guarantee that you won't face backlash from your mother. However with courage you can make it through the pregnancy. If you do not feel ready for a child then adoption is always a good option.

You should get good prenatal care. Perhaps there was little damage from your earlier actions but you should see a doctor to make sure that you and the baby are both healthy and to take good care of you both for the remainder of the pregnancy.

Kate

Hi There!! I know that you have no clue what to do right now, but you need to tell somebody. I know that your mom told you that she wouldn't love this child if you got pregnant with this boy, but someone needs to know. You can't go these months just keeping it a secret and she will have to find out the hard way and you don't want that. How about you tell one of your best friends. If they are truely your friend they will be beside you a 110%. Trust me on that. No matter what decision you make on this baby you need to tell your mother. She will be there for you. You have to trust me on that. She will probably be very angry at you, but trust me you will feel so much better after telling her and she will help you. Your her daughter and she wants the best for you!! I will be there for you!! You can do it!!