Awesome choice for you to make. Glad you know what God says about abortion. The truth is that as women we know a baby is real when we feel the symptoms of pregnancy and go through the motions. We have a closeness with our babies long before a man and men cannot know how real it is that there is a child 1/2 theirs. He may change when he sees the baby and bonds with the baby and knows that it is reality. He may never want anything to do with his child. I encourage you to read the bible a bit more to understand why God tells us not to have sex outside of wedlock. He mapped out how it should be done to avoid these situations and how to keep a marriage afloat. I know what you are going through and did it on my own until my baby died when he was 3 months old (heart condition unknown until death). It is not easy to bury your own child. My son's father never saw him until his funeral. He wanted me to do the same, abortion. So did the doctors who cared for me. You don't have to be alone in this just stop depending on him too much. He will either come in his own time or he will not. Turn to God and repent of what you have done. Form a relationship with God and a family with your child. Don't know if you listen to Rita Springer (Christian music) but order her c.d. sometime. It is very encouraging music and you can learn a lot from her music. Turn first however to the word of God, and let him guide you, as he says,\" Come unto me all who are weary and I will give you rest.\" Good song by Nicole C. Mullen ( Come unto me ). listen sometime. God is the only way at this point for your child's salvation. e-mail me sometime.
love Nikki 
