Hi,
If you really don't feal able to be a mother, and can't submit to adoption, it seems to me maybe you could ask your boyfriend to be primary caregiver after the baby is born. Or maybe you could do an open adoption, where you let the child be adopted, but still see them as they grow up. Don't have an abortion, at this stage your baby has a beating heart and can feel pain, so he would feel it is he was chopped up. I hate to be so graphic, but you have to know what abortion really is. Don't put the baby through that for the sake of your social life. Aborting his child might also end the relationship with your boyfriend, since he wants to be a father. You