its two weeks today, two weeks since one of my best friends hung himself.

suicide. that word allways made me feel....so cold inside. why would someone do it? why would someone hurt so many people? EVERY problem can be solved, it make take some time and efford for it...but they can be.

he was allways so happy, well he had problems with finding the right girl, but really, killing yourself cause of love? you cant be that stupid.

i just want to ask him why? why did he do it, does he not know that it may be over for him, but for us, the suffering just begun? when the wounds of death finally...somehow healed in my heart, bam, yet again i needed to go to a funeral and say my last goodbyes. but i didnt. i am not ready to say goodbye i WANT ANSWERS. how can you call me and make plans for lunch the next day, and then overnight do this? it just doesnt fit together. it doesnt.

i miss him so much its startin to get unbearable...i miss hi,

Andraz, R.I.P.

if he made plans with you, it seems to me like he had something to tell you. maybe that he liked you but couldnt go threw with it. I LaTera almost did the same thing because of love, but a bestfriend of mines told me that he wanted to be more than just my friend and now i'm alive and have three beautiful children, thanks to the help of Adam. i think your friend wanted to tell you something but figured that you wouldnt go threw with it as well. people who are going threw things their friends usaully dont notice until their gone. May your friend rest in peace. R>I>P

ok are you telling me like its my fault that he killed himself? seriously now?

Gangy,
i believe what she is trying to convey is that maybe he thought you wouldnt approve of what he was going to tell you. or he felt you wouldnt want to be his friend. i dont believe she was blaming you at all. just trying to help you through it but couldnt convey her message very straight we all are here for support and love! you should talk to Meg Gangy as well she is very knowledgable about suicide and can help you emotionally ill be praying for your emotions ! i cant imagine what you are going through! stay strong !
Teka

I'm very sorry for what you're going through. I can't imagine what it's like as I've never had to deal with something like that. But it really sounds like he was suffering from a serious form of depression...depression IS real and often goes untreated and leaves the person with it feeling alone. Like the last person said, he may have wanted to talk to you but didn't know how. Sometimes for people in these situations, much like with abortion, it seems like the only choice. I pray for you and your friend!

Honey I am so sorry....it is a very selfish thing to do, it sounds so cliche until you are the one in those painful shoes...the pain that suicide causes is a pain of its own category...sure we miss our grandmas who lived to 93 and had a happy loving family, we miss our friends who were ripped away in a sudden accident but to have a hole in our lives placed there by a person who CHOSE to leave, someone who willfully purposefully said, You are not worth staying here for...unless you have been abandoned in that manner you can't fully grasp what it does to a person....the guilt we carry, that we are not responsible for, the what ifs that will NEVER be answered, it is cruel and selfish and unbearable on the best day...You know I am here, I am approaching 10 years for my mom, We never had a funeral, I am thinking about planning one and advertising it in my community for anyone who wants to attend but specifically for suicide survivors like us...Honey, if it is not too late, you should go to the funeral....the closure offered is something that is rare to come by...I hate that you are going through this....I love you and wish that I could throw my arms around you...Email me anytime...Love you!