I know what your probably thinking, "how can a girl so young have two children already?!?!"
well i don't.
My best friend and the love of my life got me pregnant a few months ago. I wasnt 100% sure, but i had that feeling. like deep instead my heart i KNEW there was a baby growing inside of me. Plus we had unprotected sex and he... did it, inside me. I had all the symptoms. And honestly i wasnt all that scared, sorta happy. I know its absolutely INSANE but i kinda wanted a baby.. i was really excited.
then one day i woke up, and saw a little blood in my underwear. I figured it was just a false alarm.. and i was disappointed. then about a hour later i had a HORRIBLE pain in my stomach. like i was being stabbed over and over and over again. I was crying and screaming, begging my father for pain killers. He wanted to take me to the hospital but i wouldnt let him. I was scared hed find out and never let me see levi again. With every pain i could feel the blood draining out of me. and about 4 hours later the pain was over.
i know it has to be a miscarriage, it just hurt so damn bad. i thought i was gonna die.
and since then things have gotten a little better.
But now im almost a week late on my period. and i think im pregnant again... i just dont know anymore.
my life is hell