My name is Sierra and I am 18 years-old. I will be graduating from high school in June, but I fear that I have made the stupidest decision in my whole entire life. Ever since I was little males always have tried to take advantage of me. I remember laying in my mother's friend's bed when I was 6 or 7 years-old and her son tried to molest me. Thank God that she walked in right after her son was about to. I even almost was kidnapped by a man while riding my bike when I was maybe in the 3rd or 4th grade. Luckily I was smart enough not to go to the car. Now just two weeks ago my ex-boyfriend forced me into having sex with him. He came over to my house late while my mother was in the bed and I told him I wasn't going to get up or she wasn't going to let him come over but he came anyway. I let him in through my bedroom window. I wasn't going to let him in at first because I didn't want him to be there. I gave him the benefit of the doubt and let him in anway because I thought maybe we would just watch the movie and cuddle and chill. Then he started forcing himself on me and it happened. I didn't scream or kick him but I told him that I didn't want to and he didn't listen. I shook my head no and even tried to stop him. Even though it wasn't brutal it was still rape and he knew I didn't want to have sex with him. I realized he didn't care about me and broke up with him. Now I think I might be pregnant. I'm scared and I can't tell my mother. The same thing happened to her and I know she would be dissappointed in me for making a dumb decision and she might want to get charges on him which I don't want to do. I don't love him and never did but I know that karma will come to him. I'm not going to let that experience tear me down but I know I need help and support right now. Please give me some advice.

Hey there, Did you change your user name? Anyways I want to point out a few things you said, "I'm scared and I can't tell my mother. The same thing happened to her and I know she would be dissappointed in me for making a dumb decision" You did not make the decision to be raped and if your mom had the same thing happen to her she should understand, and he should have charges filed on him, do you want him to do this to someone else? You cannot blame yourself, you did not ask for this, go ahead and wait to see if you are late and then take a pregnancy test, let us all know what happens..this is not your fault!! Love Meg

it really isnt your fault. ur now exbf should have never done that, and your right it wasnt brutal but it was rape.. you said no and he should have stopped. though you may not want to press charges i have to agree with meg we wouldnt him to do this to someonelse. as far as your mom goes its going to be hard but you have to have a different situation. ur probably thinking the worse but your mom may support you and help you through this time that you need her. even so we are all here for you. as far as getting a pregnancy test like i said just wait a week and then take a test and be sure to get tested for stds!!