Hello,
You seem to have been putting a lot of thought into taking responsibility for your baby, as a result of having sex. That's being mature and accountable for your choices and you should be proud that you've gotten that far in your thinking. Whether you decide to keep your baby and work through your life with him/her by your side, or find a loving home for your baby, the choice will have to be your own. I have a brother and sister who cannot have children of their own and are working on their second adoption....waiting. The first little one to come into their life is from a young teen who felt she couldn't provide for her, but also had some selfish desires of her own to go back to her own ways of life after the adoption. It can be very rewarding for a lot of different reasons. The adoptive parents love and desire for a child is fullfilled, and my brother and sister-n-law have left the adoption open so the young girl can be a part of her life still. Most importantly....she was aloud to LIVE!! The young girl had enough maturity and supportive guidance to lead her in that direction to give her baby to another couple. Now she's my neice!!
If you, however, decide to keep your baby the baby will benefit in that also. You should read some other stories in the forum highlights. (just look above in the top tool bar of the site, under community) There are many stories like yours from other young girls facing graduating in a few years and have plans to go off to college. Some have made the choice to carry the baby and finish school...nothing about carrying the baby will prevent you from finishing high school. (you may just miss a day here or there). Friends also have a way of helping out with school work etc....
I was a new graduate and wanted to go off to be a flight nurse for the military....then my best friend came into my life and swept me off my feet. College would've been a major part of that life as well, but God had another plan for me. I had enough brains to get scholarship money to go to Arizona State along with being offered a sports scholarship for track.......well my life needless to say didn't turn out like I PLANNED, and I certainly didn't get the CHANCE to be a nurse or a famous athlete, but I have something more valuable than all the fame, titles or credentials in the world. Children!!! Quite a few mind you, and I never regret my choice to accept God calling me to motherhood.
I did go to school eventually though while my oldest was a baby, I'd take night classes and my best friend would babysit or if Dad wasn't traveling he would be with her. I made it through 2 1/2 yrs of classes before we decided to have another baby, and I figured out by then, I was happier just being with my babies and teaching them all I knew. The rewards of motherhood are endless and will give you more tender, intimate and loving memories of your life with them that it would overflow all the bedtime story books ever written.
Be patient in making your decision, and never mind that your ex is not along side supporting you. God has a way of touching many hearts whether they want it or not. I just would wish that you turn to prayer and quiet contemplation before chosing the life for your child.
Many prayers for God's will to be done.
myangelsinheaven
