In 3 months time I've had 2 ovarian cysts rupture. I have the cysts that are filled with blood and keep bleeding when they rupture. Both times I've had to stay over night in the hospital in case they had to do an emergency surgery. They are extreamly painful.
Let me back up a bit...
An ovarian cyst is caused by ovulating, everytime I make an egg, I get a cyst. Cysts can be removed but If you have too many they have to take your ovaries out completly.
I have multiple cysts. On each ovarie.
SO I went to my follow up appointment and my doctor said "If we dont put your ovaries to sleep, we have to take them out" MEANING I need to be put of birth control for the rest of my life untill I want children or start menopause.
Birth control really messes with my body. I already have major migranes at least 4 times a week and birth control makes them last a few days at a time.. basically all week. I get lucky if I have a day without a migrane. My boobs get so sensitive I cant run or even let the water hit them in the shower. My face breaks out so bad that no product helps. Ive tried everything even tooth paste. Pretty much every side affect. ILL GET. It makes my life miserable. Ive tried 3 differnt pills, even the lowest dose of hormones stil make my body go wack-o. Ive tried depo, the patch and nuva ring.
I have a new birth control that I havnt tried just sitting here. I am so scared to start it... I know I will miss work because of migranes and get let go because I cant make my shifts.
Someday I want a family, I need my ovaries! but birth control makes me so miserable. I just dont know what to do. I'm so upset. I hate thinking I may not ever be able to have children. I love kids, I loved being a nanny.
I hate knowing someday Im going to get married and never be able to start a family, I hate knowing that whoever I marry will feel like I cant give him everything. I just hate knowing I may not be able to expierence child birth or the joys of being a mother.