i never really knew what i was had untill yesterday evening.. my whole world seemed as though it came to a stand still.after it happened i knew my life would never be the same.
im 7 weeks... well was 7 weeks pregnant, i made the choice of keeping my baby, i was so excited even though i hadnt told my parents, and my boyfriend gave me a lot of trouble and heartache about the situation.we split up about a week agoand then got back together. all the confusement my boyfriend had ended with a bang as well.
i woke up yesterday morning with the worst cramps amd mild bleeding,but continued my day as normal,while i was at work i tried to get to the doc but he was full i then saw i was bleeding even worse, the pain got worse so did the bleeding, when 4 o clock came i was soaking a pad within about 3 hours. i got home and the cramps were extremly bad. i ended up telling my mom, who then took me to the doc. i then had to come out with the news that i was pregnant. she was not even upset she was upset i never told her, she wanted to help me, she never told my dad though as they divorced. we called my boyfriend, he came down to the doctors, and thats when i had the ultasound, i looked at the screen in disbelief, my baby was gone, i had a misscarriage, i have cried and cried non stop since last night. my bf doesn seem to upset it hurts me even more as my heart is just breaking i dont even know how i am going to get through this now
its so true what they say, you just dont know what you have untill it is taken from you. id give anything to be given another chance to give that baby life take its first breath, and for some reason im blaming myself for it:(