Hey you...I just wanted to let you know that it is normal to question things such as should haves or what ifs...but the most important thing right now is that you DIDN'T have an abortion, you will get to see her face, hear her voice, watch her grow, you will have the strain and challenge of being a single mom (it is not impossible though) and you may have more sacrifices at your age than your friends but you will never have the what ifs and should haves like the mom who aborts her baby and that is something to be so thankful for...I don't think you are horrible for having the thoughts and what ifs on it but once your baby is born and her little fingers wrap around one of yours those thoughts and your sacrifices will not compare to the love you will have for her and receive from her, the dad is not all that big of an issue, he may come around a lot at first with the hype and adrenalin of a new baby but he will either walk away and leave you alone or he will stick it out and be a good dad, either way it will work out for the best, I have one of each, my daughters dad doesn't even look at her if we see him in the store and my sons dad is here every other weekend picking him up, if he stays away then you don't have to deal with him and he still owes support, you wont have to worry about what she sees or hears when visiting and that in itself is worth it for me to not have to send my daughter with her dad...if he sticks it out and is easy to get along with that is good too, my sons dad told us yesterday with a smile that we should be getting child support soon, he was even excited that they took his tax return so he can owe less back support, I about fell over at his friendliness in the conversation but it is better than dealing with someone who wants to see their kid and not pay support...just take some deep breaths and know that no matter how he acts after she is born you have the upper hand and can make many of the important calls without him having a say...you can make it through, just don't beat yourself up for having a momentary what if though pop up in your head...rather hold your head up high because you made a beautiful and honorable decision regarding bringing this precious little girl into the world and despite what happens after her birth you will be fine...You are strong and you can be proud of yourself...I hope this helps a bit...Meg
