iam so confused i dont know what to do, iam 18 and i had an abortion when i was 15 and it changed my life so much, i went though alot afterwards, but i think iam over it now,if u want u can read my story in my blog i want a baby more then ever but all i can keep thinking about how i had the first abortion and im scared for this baby its like i think some one will steal my baby its a wierd feeling and because i still sometime have really bad night mares about my abortion and if i have a baby im so afraid that i willnt be able to stop thinking about my first child, me and my boyfriend have been together for 4 years and when i had my first abortion it was with his child but his been here for me so much and he wants a baby too, he wanted the first but he keeps asking me do i just want to have a baby because i had a abortion with the first, and i dont know what to say when he asks me and he feels i just want a baby to replace the first but in a way i agree and disagree with him but i just dont know what to do i want a baby really bad thats all i think about and i can take care of one now, im on my own me and him live together i have a job and money saved and his a firefighter and a part time boxer so we have money so its not about the money like it was before and plus were older now its i think its me he wants one bad and so do i but at the same time i dont. im just confused:dry: some one please help me i know im not the only one who felt like this before:(

I haven't been through an abortion but it seems like you do want to have another baby to forget about the abortion BUT the truth is you will always think about that first baby no matter what happens. If you feel you can look after a bub now and you have the support there then i guess you can do it.

Young lady, I cannot say I have ever had an abortion. However, years back, a former girlfriend was forced by her parents to have an abortion. She has never told me what it did to her, but I know it was difficult. I am sorry for your abortion. Being an abortion dad, I cannot say that I have nightmares about that baby, but I do think about him or her. If THAT child is forever on my mind and I never CARRIED THAT BABY, then, I know it must be difficult for you having carried that baby inside you. If all situations are good as far as money, jobs, etc. then maybe you should have another baby. It could be that you are trying to replace that child with another one. If so, then, maybe you two need to wait a while. Discuss it together.

I can understand your apprehension as to thinking someone will steal your baby. It is directly connected to your past abortion. No one will steal your baby. The mind is often fueled to play tricks on you when there is such a trauma to the body. I pray that the fear will leave your life. I pray the wound to the spirit of your mind would be healed. It can happen by the power of prayer. Things will get better.

It would seem this young man really cares a lot for you. If he has stood by you all this time, then, if you agree to it, then he should marry you. I know.... One thing at a time. Yet and still, if you guys love each other so much as to bring a child into this world, then why not do that together as husband and wife. If you can live in the house together, then you should be able to be married and stay in the house together. Yes, marriage changes everything, but it is the order of the universe. Discuss this, if you haven't already done so. Things will look up for you two.

bwade

More Children will never replace the child you have lost.