[color=#0000FF]omg..i am so upset..my name is lauren..and about a year ago..i had an abortion..and i regret it soooo much..i cry myself to sleep every night..i feel like ive killed a part of me, like im a horrible person who doesnt deserve to b happy..i cnt take it! i mean yeah the guy i was with was a total ass whole..i was only 14 at the time ((15 now))..and ik i wouldnt of been able to take care of it..but still..there's still tht feeling inside me tht wont go away..i hate myself for what i did..and the whole process of the abortion goes thro my head every single day..and its like i can feel it happening over and over again..and i cnt take it nemore..i need help..please! its coming up on when my baby woulda been one year old..ONE YEAR!! its crazy to think about all the wonderfull experiences i woulda had..first word, first tooth, first step, first bath..etc..and ik tht there woulda been some bad things too..but at least my baby would b alive..ya kno..but idk..just please..help me!

iloveyouall!

((1/25/08=1 year..please pray for him/her))[/color]

HI I THINK THAT I KNOW JUST HOWYOU FEEL BECAUSE I TOO HAD AN ABORTION A COUPLE MONTHS AGO AND I REGRET IT VERY MUCH. I WILL BE PRAYING THAT EVERYTHING GOES WELL WITH YOU, AND YEA AFTER AN ABORTION YOU DO FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE KILLED PART OF YOUSELF. BUT THAT DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU ARE A BAD PERSON OR THAT YOU DO NOT DESERVE TO BE HAPPY. I HOPE THAT EVERYTHING GOES OK FOR YOU.

sweetheart, i'm 19 yrs, and i'd love to talk if youd like.
was there someone that held your hand as you went through all of that a year ago (maybe not literally, but helped you)? If so, talk to them, maybe they will hold your hand now..You also have me : )
The abortion happened. The thing now is to get through it...and that doesnt involve the guilt of rehashing the experience in your mind. You made a decision, and regardless of the repurcussions of that action, what makes life so wonderful is that we separate ourselves from previous indescretions with every new decision we make. Everytime you smile at someone, you are one happy act further from what happened a year ago. Everytime you do something good and loving, you are one loving act further from the one that is haunting you. Those new actions-- they redefine you. build on each smile, get strength from each new one.

I am sorry that you are dealing with so much pain at such a young age. Please know that God still loves you, and that everyone sins. You felt you were making the right decision at the time. You can't keep beating yourself up about it. If you have asked for God's forgiveness, you can pray about it and give it all to God. I do not believe that God expects us to be perfect. The only perfect person, as far as I know, was Jesus and even he went through tests on Earth. Please try to stay strong and let go of your pain - you will never forget but you have to let go. I had an abortion and it is very painful, it is the hardest thing you will ever have to do in your life. God would not want you to spend the rest of your life suffering and in pain. You have to find ways to move on and to become the person God wants you to be. YOu just have to keep on trying, and try harder next time, and be stonger in your faith next time so that you can make the decisions you know are right. I had an abortion knowing it was wrong, but it was also wrong to be in a position that I needed to have the abortion. We are all sinners, every one of us. Life is very challenging and it isn't always black & white - there is grey area and I believe that God understands what women go through, and the struggles they face. You are not alone.

I'm thinking of you Lauren.

***huge imaginary hug***
I'm soooo sorry that you had to go through that. But you can always have a baby when your ready. I'll keep you in my prayers hunni...