Let me start off by saying I love my baby.
I absolutely without question love my baby-so much I would die for him/her, give him/her a kidney, take a bullet for him/her, etc...which is why I have chosen adoption.
I am 19, single, and pregnant. I can't imagine bringing this blessing into a world that isn't ready for it-- financially and otherwise. God has blessed me with the opportunity to bless a married couple with a baby they (for whatever reason) couldnt carry these nine months.
Here's my story.
Fall 2006 I would've never imagined I would be in this position. It was my senior year of high school. I didnt drink, smoke, or do drugs, and I was saving myself for marriage. Long story short, Life is what happens when we tell God our plans--- what we do to adjust to those obsticles is up to us entirely, and I handled these life changes completely wrong.
Mid-August I had sex with my boyfriend of just over a month in a bipolar episode of hypomania.
I am 16 weeks pregnant. The people who know about my pregnancy are a precious few; including my parents, sister, and the baby's father. I will be moving several states away at the end of fall term to discreetly finish the remaining months of my pregnancy.
I spend my days at home, feeling alone. The two people I can talk to are thousands of miles away respectively. I've become completely family oriented out of necessity and I'm losing my mind. I need someone to help me feel joy throughout this pregnancy. I'm depressed and without energy...and I dont know how to do this alone.
If anyone can offer me normal pregnancy advice, get excited with me, etc....it would make me feel so much more human. I cant have people putting their hand on my stomache and asking if its a boy or a girl-- the internet is the only place people can know. Please help me feel normal. :/
one more thing; I love you, even though I dont know you. I love you for reading my story.