Me and Derek (my current boyfriend now of 5 years) were young. We got together when i was 14 and he was 15 and became sexually active. Now im 18 (almost 19) and hes almost 20. Hes the only person i have ever been with. Hes the only person that would have been the father of my children.

It seems like my life went down hill ever since i first got pregnant back in 2005 when i was 16. My parents made it a living hell. And to make a long story short i was forced to get an abortion, Now i know most of you are thinking \" your not forced to do anything... that was your baby ....you didnt have to give it up\". Well the reality of the situation was to either abort or give this child a horriable life. I choose what was best.

Thinking the horror was over, i prepared my self for the future and started birth control. I didnt want to even go through that agian. Well the doctors say birth control is 99% affective. Thats a lie. I took it every single day. I got pregnant. Agian. 8 months after my previous abortion. I was 17 at this point. I felt like god was punishing me. My parents were divorcing. Every single last one of my \"so called\" friends stabbed me in the back. I felt alone. Yes, Derek was there, but not in the way that i needed him. My parents hated me. High school was going down the drain. At 5 weeks pregnant, i decided to get another abortion. Another emotional battle i had to take but i wanted sumwhat of a life for me, and a decent life i could give to my child.

Derek and I decided to not have sex for a while. We figured that was the only true way of not getting pregnant. It was hard. Trust me. Sometimes i thought the urges were going to take over my body. But overall i was ok. Until now. In the beginnig of december 2006, i was having rough times with my family and so was Derek. A few of his family members passed away and both our worlds were just turned upside down. It was a vulnerable moment. I guess when they say \"it only takes one time\" there not lying. Cause it happened. Im pregnant. For the third time.

Now...18 weeks pregnant. I go to find out what it is nxt week. This time around somthing told me not to abort this baby. Of coarse i thought that b4 when i gave up my other two, but this was just diffrent. Im 18. I moved out of my parents house and now live with Derek. Things are diffrent. Its so hard trying to afford things and everyday seems like somthing new comes up to make life more difficult. But its worth it. I have a little life inside of me. Im going to be a mommy. Im happy and horrified. But me and Derek are trying to pull things together and give this baby the best life we can give it.

My life; it feels like ive been in a dark cave for years. Mabey this little miracle is the light that ive needed all along.

- Christina

hi hunni

your story is amazing and i dont no how you have coped, i totaly agree with you about the abortion my parents forced me into having one and it was the worst thing i have ever gone through.

i hope everything goes well wih you and the baby
xx

Awesome, Congrats I promise your child will be worth it. Let us know if it's a boy or a girl, ok?

Hi I came across your comment here and I also had 2 abortions and after found out I was pregnant for the 3rd time!!! I carried my daughter to 6 months but had a devistating misscarriage!They did an autopsy on my daughter and could not find anything wrong she was healthy and growing normally they later found out it was me I had an incompatent cervix due to the abortions wich fu**** up my body and later doctors told me I could never have kids!! I was with the father for 5 yrs and later broke up and I am now with my fiance and we have been together for over 4 yrs he is alot older than me he is 31 and I am 19 he wanted kids and that was something doctors told me I wouldnt be able to give him WELL they were wrong I now have a beutiful baby girl named Amy who is going to be 2 in June and I am pregnant with another baby girl who is due in May.. It still hurts to talk about abortions and I regret it so much now that I have my daughter I think about the babies I gave up and it hurts to think I could have had my babies they are humans to they laugh they giggle and they cry but they are humans to if you ever need to talk or need some advise u can add me to msn your making the right choice girl!! Enjoy your pregnancy enjoy ur baby and enjoy life after because it only gets better!!

Hi my name is Crystal
Well while i was looking at your sad story i was thinking to myself how could your own parents force you into having a abortion. what kind of parents are they. They must didn't care about your feelings and thats sad but always remember what goes around comes around. somethings gonna happen and their gonna need you and gonna ask for your help and lets see what they say when you refuse to help them and how they are goona feel.
Just some advice make the right choice and i hope your pregenacy goes well write me back when you get a chance. peace out.

i'm so happy that u've decided to keep this baby...every little one is a miracle and is precious, and i wish u all the best...