Ok, where do I start, im 18 in a month and i am 2 and a half months pregnant. Its with my bf who ive been with for a year and a half, we live together. I havnt told anyone except him, one friend, and now, all of you reading. I dont live near my family, i moved away to live with my bf a year ago. Im really close with all my family but i cant find the courage to tell my mum or dad or sister. Im so scared. Ive always wanted a baby, oneday, i didnt expect it now. My bf doesnt want it, we both do, but we know we couldnt support it in a way we'd like to.
I took the test about 6 wks ago and couldnt believe it, my boy was cooking tea and i went in and told him. Hes good about it, not pushy, we even say names, but we know we cant have this baby no matter how much we want it conciously. I am going for my ultrasound this Friday and am sooo excited but scared. I'll hear the heartbeat and everything and dont want to get too happy and attached. I cant imagine wat the termination would be like. I have to travel 6 hrs to get it done, 6 hrs travelling for a 10 minute procedure to take away something that i find absolutely amazing!! I dont know what to do, but know what i have to do...or do i?????
I wish i had more people around, friends, family, its hard doing it alone. I only know a handful of ppl even tho ive been here a year....its hitting me hard after seeing how formed my baby is already, i just dont know what to do. im scared of dissapointing my parents. i love my family to death, and my boyfriend is great. at first he didnt seem to relise ..but now he does. after my morning sickness and everything hes been really good. i just need advice...what do i do? im scared...how could i let it happen? please... give me advice...