Hey, I just wanted to share my story and ask for comments or any advice. I am exactly 20 weeks into my pregnancy and expecting a beautiful babygrl. All through out my pregnancy, I wanted to keep it a secret from my \"very strict\" family. i WAS sure that they were gonna kill me, but they found out and just left it alone and actually have been supportive to a great extent. I live with my boyfriend so, the whole \"getting kicked out issue\" didn't bother me. But now, I'm bored, I want freedom, I want to be able to go out and party like my friends, I want to be able to smoke again ( I MISS IT SO MUCH.. I QUIT coldturkey when I found out I was pregnant). I don't get along with anyone, and on top of everything Im bipolar, I miss my mom and having everything in my house, and I don't know what to do. Ive been suicidal in the past and I'm scared of going through that route again. I can't feel the baby move yet, but she moved in the ultrasounds so much that the technicians were complaining. I love my man to death and he's always been there but can that last a lifetime? Can I give this child a life she deserves? My family thinks abortion will save me, and in a way, it will. But it would destroy me as a person and I know it, and my bf would probably never get over it. Where do I go from here?

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I suggest you tough it out for a couple more months for your child's sake. It's pretty late to worry about an abortion, and if you can make it for just a bit longer, you could always do an open adoption and have your freedom back. I believe as hard as an adoption would be for you, having an abortion just for the reasons you gave would haunt you later in life. Adoption is a loving choice.

It really sounds like to me that you don't want an abortion. I think you could be confused and thats normal in pregnancy, i think most girls/woman go through it.
It sounds like your life is going well and you would make a lovely mother.
YOU CAN DO IT!!!