i was 4 in a half months pregnant and my parents made me get an abortion. i wanted to keep the baby. i am so sad all the time now and i want my baby back. i hate my parents now and i don't know what to do anymore because it feels like i am going to have an emotional break down

My advice angel123 is please go see a counseller. U might think it is a waste of time but trust me they can and will help you get yourself back to feeling like everything will be ok. It is a long process and i think your parents (if your willing) should take part in this. How old are you?? And how long ago did u have termination? Sending you a big hug

Hello - my name is Lisa and I read your e-mail and my heart so aches for you. I am so so very sorry that your parents made you do something that is such a horrible experience. Please keep coming back here and sharing your heart and feelings so that you know that you are not alone. That you can talk to others that have been just where you are too.

You see - I also had an abortion, though it wasn't forced on me, the feeling of loss and griefe was intense. It's so important that you are honest with at least your mom. But in due time. Right now I would like to see you get healing and get free from out of under the heartache you are experiencing right now.

I know it seems so impossible because your heart hurts that no words can match up. It's like trying to explain to someone what it feels like to have a baby. You know it's painful, but you never know how painful until you actually experience the pain yourself. I know the feeling of loss that you have and I certainly do not want to see you getting any feelings of anger or bitterness towards your parents. Though it was not right in what they forced upon you, the anger and bitterness can only hurt you even more.

I wish I could just wrap my arms around you and give you a hug and tell you that you will be OK. What I would like to do is copy two links for you. Both can help you to locate a post abortion group in your area. Share with others that are going through the same pain you are. It helps so so much!

One of those sites is:

www.OptionLine,org

The other one is:

www.abortionrecoverydirectory.org/

Please let me know if you locate a place in your area where you can get someone to talk to and to help you. You can always come here too. OK?

Also - here is a link to my story so you know that you are not alone:

standupgirl.com/web/index.php?option=com...74&Itemid=41

Take care of yourself. I'll be thinking and praying for you.

Luv Lisa

i had the abortion 2 months ago. are there counselers that specialize in this kind of stuff

Well this is how it works. I'm not a professional counselor, but I have been down that road, so I actually lead one of these types of groups in the area that I live in. Somehow, when I went through the class myself, it was very comforting to know that the girls that were leading my group had both also gone through an abortion so they knew exactly what I was feeling. But what I saw in them ... I wanted. What did i see? A freedom. A freedom from the guilt, the shame and the sorrow that I had deep inside of my heart. Sorrow that I really had no idea that I had. It was so deep and so stuffed down, that I really had no idea what or how to deal with it.

We used a book called \"Forgiven and Set Free\" written by Linda Cochran and it is a FANTASTIC workbook. It's used i n post abortion groups all over the US. It is stting girls free all over the place. Including me and I would love for you to be one of them. each chapter represents a different emotion that we experience in abortion. Anger, depression, forgiveness and so on. I HIGHLY recommend either going to those sites and calling a nearby center to see if they offer a group with those materials or I can help you locate the workbook on line for a really inexpensive price on e-bay or something like that. Or maybe even a nearby bookstore. But I would recommend going to a group where there are other girls in the group. Somehow it just helps knowing that you are not the only one. Then sometmes someone will share their pain and you can totally identify. It's amazing.

Let me know if I can help you with anything OK?

Luv Lisa