i reckon its time for you two to take responsibility for this baby, 5 abortions in 5 years...thats not good.
if you dont think you can handle another abortion, dont do it! its your body, your boyfriend, like you said, has no idea first hand what its like to have a baby growing inside of you, who cares if its not the 'right time' for him. dont let him make decisions for you! its your life, your body, your choice. do what YOU want to do, but from hearing your story, i reckon its time to stand up and give this baby life, its not his/her fault that it was concieved, give it a chance and talk to your boyfriend about it, whatever you do, we will all be here behind you
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